EMBERS
He stands in the small corner yard
in a carpet of mown-over clover
like a guardsman among her things
packed tightly in cardboard cages,
watching her go.
His eyes damp, a bent smile –
She stands on the sidewalk
on a black
grungy crack
Turning to
go,
her long red
hair a vixen’s flame,
She looks back
over her shoulder
Her green eyes
are flint that strike sparks
And light a fire in the sky.
Film
Noir
Lightning
strikes and an old oak splits in two.
Mother stops
ironing; hovers above a badly
wrinkled
landscape. Dad bangs in the door bringing
with him the
sweet smell of gardenias.
Crosses the den in three long
steps.
Picks up the
screaming phone that is tethered
to the wall
with a spiral cord. Caroline,
with her ebony
hair and Snow White face, is dead.
Extracted from a pile of twisted metal and
broken glass;
she survived
for two short December days.
A Christmas Eve
funeral. Ice encapsulates
Every rose
falling from her casket.
That night and for the next 29
years,
she speaks to
me in dreams. Always sitting in a green-painted,
wooden chair.
The room, plain and dark, she turns to me:
Her face
becomes a movie reel, shows details of a life I didn’t know
all that well:
tent camping on white-sand beaches in France, dancing ballet
with grace and
fluidity, a tender first time making love, and a rape
last year on
the Country Club’s freshly mowed lawn.
She turns to me
and plays for me a Christmas
Special:
“Things Worse Than Death”
The hot, naked
paunch of a filthy man
suspended over
you. The sweat from
his hair falling in your eyes, his
fluid tacky, pooling on your
stomach
and inside your ripped underwear,
the cool, slick edge of a sharp
knife
meeting the thin skin at your neck so that
you
swallow all screams
Janet Doggett
has a master’s degree in creative writing from Texas Tech University and has had
many creative nonfiction essays published in journals, most notably, So-to-Speak
and Tangent. Also, she has published essays on websites such as Celiac.com and The New England Writer’s Society. A
poem, Death, Maybe? recently was published (#20) in Drown In My Own Fears. Three
poems are to be published through scar publications in Down in the Dirt magazine
in March 13, April 13 and May 13. In 2003, I won the best writing award as a
graduate student at the Albuquerque Pop Culture Conference. I live in
Massachusetts.
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